|Madison praying at the Good Friday service|
Easter was last Sunday. It is always a joy to celebrate the fact that my Savior is Risen! It gives me goosebumps just to type that sentence. Family always comes to my house to celebrate and this year was no different. 21 people eating in my itty bitty dining and living room with more than half of them children. The food was alright in my opinion. I can say that since I was the cook. The fellowship was good. But there was something missing.
Reflecting on Easter this year has left my heart heavy. Almost like I missed an opportunity to teach my children something important. Not only my children but my whole family as well. Have you ever had that happen? As soon as the holiday is over and you can breathe again, you aren’t happy but sad instead. Kinda like you missed the boat.
Before I labor on and on here, I must make a confession. My heart has been heavy for awhile now. I am in a season of my life that is incredibly difficult and overwhelming. I feel God leading me through and using me. It is not my place to ask Him why I have been given this task. I am merely to accept the task at hand and do it to the best of my ability all while keeping my focus on Him.
My overwhelming feeling when I reflect on Easter is that is wasn’t all about Jesus and His sacrifice. Yes, we did many activities to reflect on Good Friday. We got it that day. Somehow, it got away from us. We lost our focus as a family. I lost my focus as a mom leading my children. It became less about Jesus and more about stress and the Easter Bunny and being the perfect hostess with the perfect house for the perfect gathering. In the end, all the stress wasn’t worth it and the perfect gathering didn’t happen.
I took my eyes off of the important thing. That’s the feeling I get when I reflect on Easter. My heart grows heavy and my eyes fill with tears. Many people look to me as a role model whether I like it or not. I failed. I could say it nicer but in the end I failed. I had a perfect opportunity to focus on Christ with people who don’t often do that. You know what Satan’s number one tool is to get Christians away from Christ? Get them busy. Too busy to worship. Too busy to celebrate Resurrection Sunday. And I let him do it.